WOW a lot has happened in 2 years

WOW i didnt realize it had been that long since i had blogged lol. So much has happened Michael went away for a year, we lost our cat, we moved from Colorado, Michael changed careers, i cant believe its been so long.

Karma my a**

Ok so some of you know my cat T.T. is missing. she has been missing since Saturday night the 20th of September. i have looked and called everyday. i have walked rode my bike and drove EVERYWHERE looking for her.

and its not fair. i have taken in other peoples animals, when i see an animal out by the road if i find one i try to find the owner, i have driven to a vet 15 miles away to get a dog scanned to help find the owner.

i always pick up strays and feed them hang onto them for a couple of days until their owners have time to look for them or post signs.

when i took two dogs to the humane society i called and checked them, because if they didn't find homes in time i was going to go back and get them. my dog got hurt and i had to take her to the vet and pay 150 dollars to get her stitches and that owner of the dog who did it, would not pay anything, and DID not go to the shelter to pick up his dogs.

luckily i called and they had found homes, but i would have gone back and gotten them.

my point is karma wise i am a good person when it comes to animals. i am even a good person when it comes to panhandlers on the street. this morning i saw a guy, and when i got done with my errand i went to BK and bought two sausage biscuits to give to him, he wasn't there when i went back by, but i did it just in case. i gave another man a 15$ walmart card to buy groceries. I figure hey i am blessed i have an extra 15$.

where is my good karma??? why cant someone find my cat and bring her home to me. i paid money to have this chip put in her, but that is only if they take her to the vet, and they scan her. if she goes to the shelter they have to scan her.

its not fair, i try to do the right thing, and be a good person and right now i feel like whats the point. i lost something i dearly love, so what good did doing all the good do me. karma isnt working for me. being persistent in looking isn't working for me.

i have printed out fliers and went and staple gunned them to every pole i could. i have knocked on 20 doors, i have asked every person walking on the street, in their yard, HECK i have yelled through a screen door asking people if they have seen a mostly white cat.

i am so ready to say screw karma, because karma screwed me. i want my cat back home, and i want her now. i want this time for the good deeds i have done for others peoples animals to pay off for me.

those people half the time didn't even say thank you. i have "rescued" i don't know how many animals. my neighbor across the streets dog got out and i searched the internet to track her down at work (after about 30 minutes of looking) to tell her that her dog was out but that he was back in the yard. did she come to my house to tell me thank you, NO.

another lady i found her dog about to be hit on one of the main streets brought her home to my house fed her, gave her water, took care of her, and when i saw the sign i called.

she came and picked the dog up from my husand, he was sitting outside, she didn't ask to talk to me or to say thank you.


so i want this to be my thank you, i want T.T. coming home to be my thank you for all the crap i have done for everyone else over the years. T.T. is irreplaceable. not only because she came from Portugal but because she is T.T. and this is going to kill me if i never know what happened to her.


ok thats it, i just needed to vent and get it, i am so angry i could scream. its not fair, its not fair.

my husband has to leave, as if that isn't traumatic enough, then i lose one of my "babies" , its crap and its not fair.

thanks for reading if you made it this far

T~

John Cusack

Sadly i have come to the realization it is way better to never hear from an actor you like, as inevitably they will ruin your liking of them.


I have had John Cusack on my friends list for a while, and tonight i removed him. I get that myspace is a platform for him, but i tire of daily seeing 4 blogs all biased towards Obama, mentioning War Inc.


He had a new movie come out that i bet not many on his friends list actually knew about. He did not promote it that i saw, but i guess it was just a lowly children's movie. Igor came out and with no help from him.



I have no issue with celebrities stating their opinion, but being on a friends list on myspace, i did not know i was requesting, political John all the time.


I cannot watch a movie of his now without the nagging thoughts going back to the biased blogs he has posted. I am sure i am not the only one who feels this way, as given my job, i hear from others who here on his myspace that they to had, had enough.


I really enjoyed his acting, but having blog after blog insulting anyone who dares to think differently, implied by him, and more than said by posters on the blog, i have lost any respect i had for him as an actor and as a human being.


This world is built on the fact we are all different. And the honest truth is no matter which crook we put in the white house, it will not change the way we treat each other, and love one another.


ALL politicians are crooks, and say what they feel will make them look good. They do not care, nor do they have any idea what the average american's daily routine is like. Much to my dismay, i have learned that most Hollywood actors have no idea either, and do not care to know what anyone thinks that is not along the lines of what they deem to be the best way to fix the world. There are few RARE exceptions to this. And they are rarely heard from, as if they do speak out, they suddenly do not have the same rate of hire they had before they spoke out, and they are treated differently that their more liberal "friends".


So sadly, John Cusack has gone off my list of actors i enjoy. And to my amazement here lately Alec Baldwin has become somewhat of a joy to watch, and seems to be realizing that the world is full of people who think differently, but it does not mean that we have to harp on those differences daily.


Because people in the end, what will matter when we are all gone from this earth, is not who the president was, but how we treated each other. And right now i would say the world has a very low grade in that area.


Thanks for reading,
T~

Life or something like it

How did i get here? i am almost 34 years old, my children have grown so fast and now i am "old". Remember when you thought 30 was old? Well...................i passed 30 a while back.

I feel so sad sometimes that life is going by so fast. I mean growing up the adults always said, time flies when you get older, but they neglected to mention it passes at the speed of light.

Just yesterday my babies were babies. Now one is almost a teenager, and the other is almost 7. My husband has to leave us for a while, and i am wigging out. To those of us who grew up in the 80's we get the word wigging.

I just want to turn back the clock a few years, it seems every year i know more and realize all my could of would of should of's.

I know that soon i will be an "old Lady" and my grandchildren will come to visit, and then one day i will be gone. I wonder if i will have passed on all the things i learned to my children and they in turn passed them on to their children?


I hope so, i hope that each generation that goes out from me, is smarter, and makes better choices. Its so sad, and yet i look forward to it. Talk about ironic. I dont want to get old, but i relish in seeing my children learn new things and become the people they are becoming. Life is a vicious thing isnt it? or something like it.