Karma my a**

Ok so some of you know my cat T.T. is missing. she has been missing since Saturday night the 20th of September. i have looked and called everyday. i have walked rode my bike and drove EVERYWHERE looking for her.

and its not fair. i have taken in other peoples animals, when i see an animal out by the road if i find one i try to find the owner, i have driven to a vet 15 miles away to get a dog scanned to help find the owner.

i always pick up strays and feed them hang onto them for a couple of days until their owners have time to look for them or post signs.

when i took two dogs to the humane society i called and checked them, because if they didn't find homes in time i was going to go back and get them. my dog got hurt and i had to take her to the vet and pay 150 dollars to get her stitches and that owner of the dog who did it, would not pay anything, and DID not go to the shelter to pick up his dogs.

luckily i called and they had found homes, but i would have gone back and gotten them.

my point is karma wise i am a good person when it comes to animals. i am even a good person when it comes to panhandlers on the street. this morning i saw a guy, and when i got done with my errand i went to BK and bought two sausage biscuits to give to him, he wasn't there when i went back by, but i did it just in case. i gave another man a 15$ walmart card to buy groceries. I figure hey i am blessed i have an extra 15$.

where is my good karma??? why cant someone find my cat and bring her home to me. i paid money to have this chip put in her, but that is only if they take her to the vet, and they scan her. if she goes to the shelter they have to scan her.

its not fair, i try to do the right thing, and be a good person and right now i feel like whats the point. i lost something i dearly love, so what good did doing all the good do me. karma isnt working for me. being persistent in looking isn't working for me.

i have printed out fliers and went and staple gunned them to every pole i could. i have knocked on 20 doors, i have asked every person walking on the street, in their yard, HECK i have yelled through a screen door asking people if they have seen a mostly white cat.

i am so ready to say screw karma, because karma screwed me. i want my cat back home, and i want her now. i want this time for the good deeds i have done for others peoples animals to pay off for me.

those people half the time didn't even say thank you. i have "rescued" i don't know how many animals. my neighbor across the streets dog got out and i searched the internet to track her down at work (after about 30 minutes of looking) to tell her that her dog was out but that he was back in the yard. did she come to my house to tell me thank you, NO.

another lady i found her dog about to be hit on one of the main streets brought her home to my house fed her, gave her water, took care of her, and when i saw the sign i called.

she came and picked the dog up from my husand, he was sitting outside, she didn't ask to talk to me or to say thank you.


so i want this to be my thank you, i want T.T. coming home to be my thank you for all the crap i have done for everyone else over the years. T.T. is irreplaceable. not only because she came from Portugal but because she is T.T. and this is going to kill me if i never know what happened to her.


ok thats it, i just needed to vent and get it, i am so angry i could scream. its not fair, its not fair.

my husband has to leave, as if that isn't traumatic enough, then i lose one of my "babies" , its crap and its not fair.

thanks for reading if you made it this far

T~